A letter to Santa.

Dear Santa,

I know my letter is a bit late but it is only because of India's splendid BSNL connection. The only time it works properly is when there is a power cut in the area. Anyway, complaints aside, I've written this letter to send my wishlist just like any other kid (I ain't legal yet, so I can call myself a kid right? ) and I hope fervently that you will grant my wishes.

05) Let there be political peace in this world. (I am so tired of people killing each other. No one cries for them anymore. No one even tries to say a 'RIP' prayer for them.)

04) I could not find winter this year. Did I misplace it? If yes, Please give it back to me, because I love it very very much. (I could not wear my jackets,sweatshirts :( )

03) I want to see how empty hospitals look. (Please, please grant me this one if not the rest)

02) Family, friends and everyone I know and do not know should be 'Happy-happy', grant their wishes too and if they forgot to send you a letter, peep into their minds. (I know it's a bad habit but they'll excuse you for this one)

01) I wish I never existed. ( It's okay if you can't grant this one. You can stop my existence now.)

Thanking you,

Sowmya

The haunting memories.

As I walked outside and looked up at the sky

It seemed like the clouds, with me, wanted to cry

The glowing bonfire which ultimately dies

reminded me of your shining eyes;

The laughs, the smiles and all the little things we shared

seemed so real but now I know you'd never cared

I was just a passing milestone.

a dying star which never shone;

Somewhere I knew it was not right,

But I'd created a virtual world in which you were my knight.

But the world of make-believe never lasts long

and I was forced see how everything had gone too wrong.

And my bubble burst and I was no longer the princess

Just my usual self, feeling very useless.

As I continue to walk, I couldn't help but to let out a sigh,

As tears rolled down my eyes, how I wished I could once again be by your side..

A Dedication.

It's been a rush last month and I don't know where all those sundays and mondays have gone. I don't remember what happened in the past week nor do I remember any major incident that has occurred.

Hurried texts - 'Hey, Shelly get the chem text. I'll get the physics one. Oh btw good morning. '

And rejecting calls - 'Oh Fuk, I'm so sorry but I can't talk right now. I so have to run! Love ya, Mwaaxh! '

Skipping breakfast - 'LATE! LATE! LATE!'

And chucking lunch - 'Gotta run for pracs, lunch later.'

But somehow when I was walking back home from college and it was all silent (Cuz my I-Pod was dead obviously!) a friend's words came into my mind - ' Do you know? When I walk back alone.. through a lonely street just when the lovely golden pinkish sun sets ..the cool breeze.. no vehicles all alone..i think of all the good things i could do and be in life...' and I realised just how long it has been since I gave some time to myself, my thoughts, my life.

So here I am finally publishing a post, listening to songs, thinking about my past, present, future and thanking god for blessing me with such Wunnerful buddies :) (The same friend's accent).

This post is dedicated to all of you guys who've made a difference in my life. Love ya all so much!

10) Naina Trivedi - The popular girl in school.

9) Puneet Passi - The guy who saved me from spankings in coaching.

8) Sneha - The childhood buddy.

7) Palash Dubey - The best guy friend I'd ever had.

6) *

5) Navankur Shrivastava - The Stranger.

4)Venkat Reddy - The guy who saved my day.

3) Kanchan Chandnani - The girl I can always count on.

2) Shalini Seshagiri - My BFFL.

1) Rahul Mathur - The guy who made me what I am today.

P.S. #6 is for all the amazing buddies in Hyderabad. You guys have made hell so much fun., Kavya, Pavvi, TL, Karthik, Brijesh, Noodles, Deeps, Shiva, Gauthami, Sandy..and the others of course.

Love you all once again.

<3

Random thoughts.

I was supposed to start studying at 11:00 according to my so called 'Time-table' and its 13:01 as I type this line. Mid-terms are from Wednesday and I still have 2 chapters to go. I hate math. And conic sections are just worse. I hope I dont end up getting the normal 80 marks again. I know I can cross 90 if I put in a teeny bit of hardwork, but doing the hardwork is the hardest part so here I am wasting my time trying to write something which will interest my readers (if there are any). I think I'd better go and start studying. Yeah, right. I will shut down my lappie, open my books and drift away to dreamland or take out my I-pod and start listening to random songs. I will never change no matter how hard I try to.

:/

Hope you guys are doing a better job of wasting your life.

Adios.

Nostalgic memories..

It was a bad day for sure. Everything was pissing me off. Somehow I managed to get through the day without freaking but the moment I stepped out of the college premises it started pouring. Heavily. That was the last thing I wanted and I wasn't even carrying an umbrella/coat. I started swearing and cursing my luck and looked around for shelter. Luckily I caught the eye of a Rickshaw wala and asked him if he would come. (Hyderabadi autowalas are weird. They will take you to the place where they wanna go, not to the place you wanna go.) Anyway he agreed and I sat with my clothes sticking to me like chewing gum to hair and the rain was splattering across my face no matter how hard I tried not to sit at the open ends. I was still cursing when I stopped at a signal.

Another rick came to a stop beside mine and I glanced casually. It was a school rick. I was surprised. The kids in that rick were so excited and happy at the prospect of getting wet. One guy was actually putting his tongue out trying to taste the rain drops and another little girl her stretched out her small arm to catch the tiny droplets. The innocence and the little joys of those kids struck me loud and hard. It took me back to the time when I was a kid and how much pleasure I used to seek when the monsoon came. And Now, where I was cursing the same rain. How contrasting.

Time sure can change a person.

The innocent and the simple thoughts we have when we are young are replaced by cunning, mean and selfish thoughts as we grow up. Thoughts about how we can beat the other person and race ahead, how we can become successful by pushing the other person down.

It reminds me of a poem I recently read in Eng. class -

"Once upon a time.." by 'W.H Davies'.

Davies sarcastically remarks on how earlier people used to mean their words but now those wel come words have no meaning at all. Now, 'Glad to meet you' means 'Glad to get rid of you' and

'Goodbye' means 'Good riddance'. It is a must read for all people out there.

Well, I guess all I wanna say is I miss being a kid and I miss the happiness.

Time flies leaving you alone with the miseries of life.

So make the most of what you have and stop cursing the rain like me. It is just a natural process important for our survival.

Chemistry was never such fun!

I was sleeping in class. Yet again. No matter how hard I try to keep my eyes open, the Chemistry Sir's droning voice eventually puts me to sleep. I always wonder if he uses chloroform as a deodrant or something. I was in the 90% asleep 10% still in class state when a sudden jab brought me back to reality.
"OUCH!", I whisper - shrieked and turned to see who it was. Shelly. Who else. "WTF, You scared me to...", I broke off when I saw how hard she was trying to refrain herself from bursting into laughter.

Okay, So I missed some very funny joke. I looked around. No one was laughing. The first bencher's were busy jotting down the rubbish Sir had written on the board. The last bencher's were sleeping and Vidz was animatedly explaining her 'I wasted 100 lts of water' incident to Avi. I looked at Shelly again who was trying to control the giggles which threatened to burst any moment. "What is so funny?", I asked. She looked for a pen, found it in the desk and scribbled something in her extremely tidy ( 'Cuz nothing was written) notebook. I leaned over and tried to make out her scribbles.

'Lstn 2 Vnkt' was written

Okay, for people who are not from my college, Venkat is our Chem lec.

Though listening to him was the last thing on my list of 'Things to do when class is boring', I tried to tune in.

"Naturally you will can't flow from low pressure to high pressure area.", he was saying.
"Huh?", I said totally not understanding what he meant. "I am not a gas or something for me to flow from L.P to H.P region". She saw the 'Question mark' expression on my face and started giggling harder.

*Realisation*

Thats was exactly why Shelly was laughing! Vnkt's english was utter rubbish! I
I looked at Shelly and we both burst out laughing. Though there was nothing that funny, we laughed anyway. Thats exactly how we are. We just need a reason to laugh.
This suddenly seemed more interesting than sleeping so i tuned in completely and started listening to his class.

Some of his Phrases, statements, whatever.

# "Some disturb is there in orderness"
Meaning : There is a disturbance in the order.

# "Entropy also what happened??"
Meaning : How is entropy related?

# "Correct as wrong is given"
Meaning : The textbook is wrong so correct it.

# "Like this formulas also you can take"
Meaning : You can use similar formulae.

# "The inside quantity must be readily boiled"
Meaning : The quantity inside the container should boil immediately.

#"Total heat is inside is there"
Meaning : Still trying to find out!

And it goes on..

We ended up laughing at him the whole hour and this resulted in empty notebooks which were bound to creat trouble for us. Later. But we enjoyed and that is what matters!

Seriously, Chemistry was never such fun!

I will be..

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I thought that I had every thing I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want

And with out you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

And I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing okay.

A New friend.

My experience - 1.

'Hydrogen bonding is of two types, -> Intramolecular and -> Intermolecular...', The Chemistry lecturer was poring over his notes, trying to make sense of it and then try and teach it to the half sleeping class, make that 3/4th. 'Darn, Darn! 5 tests in 7 days hardly makes sense! When are we gonna study?!', Shelly wailed with a very disgusted expression on her face. She had that expression most of the time these days. 'That reminds me, your dad's B'day's on the 6th right?', she enquired. 'Hmm..', I answered '6th of August, thats like far away.' I looked up to see the board for the first time in class. 'OMG! Today's 5th August! Where has July gone? Did I miss something?', I screamed! 'Just about 10 assignments and 4 chapters, nothing more', she responded dryly and went back to counting dates. That was when i realised how much i was missing by being in my so called state of 'Hibernation'. I didn't know how and when july passed. I didn't remember talking to anyone or doing anything. I didn't even remember the last time I had eaten properly. Random. This was the word that came to my mind. I'd never thought a date would mean so much to me. It was no longer just Dad's Birthday, A date which I skipped since 3 years. It was the time to wake up and show how much people meant to me. Especially Dad.

I rushed through College, trying very hard not to forget the date. Finally the long day came to an end. I ran home, dumped my back, said a quick 'Hi!' to grandma and zoomed out on my ancient bike. Next Stop - Fifth Avenue Gallery.

Fabs is one of the fabulous places in Hyderabad which amazes me. The beautiful gallery out shines every damned Archies Gallery in this world. Anyway I ran to the 2nd floor to the 'Ties' section and was trying to fine 'THE' one for Dad, when i heard a familiar voice. I was too pre-occupied to notice who it was and i was just praying that whoever it was wouldn't come and start a polite conversation. The voice seemed pretty close and my curiosity got the better of me. I looked up and saw a faded blue jean-ed guy with a deep blue shirt tucked in, with his back towards me. Ahem. Somehow he looked familiar. However i continued sorting through the ties, looking up now and then to see his face. The guy seemed to be going through some ear-rings and was totally picking up the 'So NOT cool' stuff. 'Hope he doesn't get screwed up by his girlfriend!', I chuckled to myself. He suddenly turned and waved. 'Hey! You are Sowmya right? KK's friend?', he asked with a big smile on his face. My heart skipped a beat. So it was HIM! And i couldn't believe that the 'HIM' knew my name! It took a second for me to find my voice and when i spoke it sounded like a cross betweeen Donald Duck and Mickey mouse. ' Yep, Thats me.' Wow. What a brilliant response. Some impression I must have created and I did not dare think about the expression on my face though there was no reason for me to be mortified, petrified or both. Somehow I composed myself and tried to make a casual conversation. 'Girlfriend?', I enquired looking at the dangly red pair of ear-rings in his hand. 'Naww..No such luck..Sister. Raksha Bandhan you see..', he said with a lop-sided smile. I looked into his eyes and was spell bound. His eyes were the most gorgeous honey colour ever! One could keep staring into his eyes for centuries and never get bored. Wow. No wonder Shelly was so into him. And funny, I never noticed how cute his dimples were or how totally hot he looked. I decided the HIBERNATION made me miss some of the most beautiful things in this world. 'Hey. would you mind doing a poor man a favor?', he smiled the most melting smile ever. I would be crazy and out of my senses to say no. 'Sure, lemme guess, You want me to help pick up stuff for your sis, right?' I asked. Cool. Smart enough. Unless he had something else like taking me out to dinner or maybe ask me to be his girl in his mind. 'Yes! Thats it! Would you please do it? I have absolutely No clue to what a girl likes to wear!', He heaved a sigh of relief. Rotten luck. My guess was right. Smiling to myself, I professionally sorted through the stuff until I found the perfect tiny dolphin ear-rings i had in mind, talking to him all the time. Funny, How easy it was to talk to him. He got my jokes, laughed at the right time, His eyes twinkling all the time. Hyderabadi guys could be cool too, I realised and the word 'Potential Boyfriend' flickered through my mind for an instant. 'My! They look good! 'Thanks a bunch Sowmya, You're a lifesaver!', he said and gave me the most adorable smile ever! 'Haha! Sure. Feel free to call the helpline anytime you want!, I laughed. Time to go, I realised. I still hadn't picked a tie for Dad but was sure the Archies Gallery would have one! He paid the bill and we walked to the door. Crap. I'd parked my vehicle too close to the door. 'Well then, See ya around', i said, waving to him. He smiled. I started my vehicle which splutterred to life on the first try without further embarassment to my relief. I was about to accelerate when he called out, 'Hey Lifesaver! Belated Happy friendship day! Hope you come to my rescue the next time I'm in distress!'. 'Lol! Sure!', I yelled over the sound of the traffic, trying to ignore the growing butterflies in my stomach.

Mission Accomplished.

Born again

After 15 months of Boredom, I realised that blogging is better than writing a diary. (Atleast You wont have troublesome 4 year olds trying to tear your diary into bits and pieces! )

Well, I am just the usual girl, Bubbly and sweet. Get me started about one of my favorite things ( which are like a million ) and I'll end up talking the whole day and night, if i am permitted! I love reading (Novels obviously!), Music, Dancing, Skating, Chocolates, Sunflowers and soft, cuddly toys.

I play my guitar when I get all lonely and play basketball when i have excess energy. And being a typical girl 'The mood swings' are quite common. I go to a random Junior college in Hyderabad, trying for the "Ever so Great IIT seat" like all the other million people out there. (I prefer being a Journalist. English is my thing.) I love Travelling and meeting new people and of course learning new lingos. And i survive because of my lil group of the world's Best friends! So Cheers to a new blog, a new beginning!